What's everyone up to?

I'm glad it's going good. Sucks that you haven't done anything with fiction yet but I'm sure you will soon. As for the job part, GL! lol That seems to be the most difficult part but I'm sure you'll find one

OMG!!!!!!!!! I MISS EVERYBODY!!!!!!!!!!!!

lol , finding a job relative to something you want to do sucks. They make it so hard and difficult which i dont mind too much but they do things like oh you need a degree and work experience but u cant get the work experience without the degree. So its like erm what are u supposed to do. And i only have an AA so that drops my options in half. Im going to go back to school but i do need to work atleast part time but i dont want to do a whatever retail job. I want something meaningful or with a purpose. AH thats my rant about that lol.

Awhh!!!! Tasha!!!! I miss you!!!

Glad your internet is back

I know!!! So am I!!!!!

I'm counting the second until i get home. I was feeling a little better today, not coughin as much. But i just got nauseous and yucky feeling all of a sudden. I just want soup and my bed loll

But ya'll, I want to ask your opinion on a situation I have. AN ex friend contacted me and wants to meet to talk. I agreed to the meeting. But i dont know what i want to come of it. I thought i let it go and I think i have too much hurt in my heart to forgive and rekindle friendships. But i agreed to the meeting. I dont have much time right now the hubby is almost out of his treatment so i'll post more later about the specifics of the situation. BUt i just dont know what to do. I dont know what i want to come out of this. I know talking about it will provide resolution one way or another which is good, im trying to be mature and the bigger better person. But i thought i let go and closed the doors especially after being so alone through everything with the fiancee and his hospitalization and cancer and my fathers health and cancer. But i'll write more later on. I just respect u all and thought why not get everyone's objective opinion about it. U guys always help me out :-)

Tasha, I posted to the ex friend thing in the other topic. I'm sorry you aren't feeling too good right now. You probably just need to rest. Take things slow. It took me a few days to get my strength back (actually I'm still working on getting it all back) so just take it easy.

Oh and I completely agree with the whole work thing. it's ridiculous what they want out of people. But any work experience is better than none.

My morning started off good, then got...frustrating, but now it's good again. I just now realized my reading got interrupted haha. My friend texted me with a problem so i got on here to check on a response and just not remember I was reading lol. Oh well, I need to clean now anyway. Sometimes I prefer being stuck in bed to the every day house work.

SecretMagic wrote:

....After that will come the scary part: finding a job :S

Getting a proper 40hrs per week job is so damn hard. If you want a decent salary you need post grad these days. Been studying for 17yrs I want a break.

L.Dragomir wrote:

SecretMagic wrote:

....After that will come the scary part: finding a job :S

Getting a proper 40hrs per week job is so damn hard. If you want a decent salary you need post grad these days. Been studying for 17yrs I want a break.

I know! All we've ever been are students, we've got no other skills.


Tasha: Can I ask how long this person has been an ex-friend? Is it like something that only happened recently, or has it been a while since you've been close? I don't want to sound harsh, especially since it's possibily to rekindle friendships even if years have passed, but if you're sort of unhappy about it, there must have been a solid reason for you guys to not be friends. Was it just losing touch, or fighting? If it's too much to get into then you don't have to say, but unfortunately I've become sceptical with friendships that break up because a friend of mine did that to me in High School. She just stopped coming to school and then stopped talking to people. It was really hard for me, because she'd been one of my closest friends for years and lived across the road from me (still does...3 houses down and on the other side of the street) Even though I tried to be her friend still she kept ignoring me, so I gave up. If she ever tried to get close to me again I don't think I'd shut her out (because that's not who I am) but I don't think I could let her in.

I'm pretty much was wondering the same thing Kim is Tasha. To add to what I said yesterday, I think it all depends on the situation and reason for why you become ex friends in the first place. Everything happens for a reason.

I did my hair and makeup for the first time in oh about 3 weeks. Since coming back from AR. After the 3 weeks I had, I just felt the need to look decent while running errands today. Normally I don't care and will just dab on a little eyeliner and lip gloss, pull my hair up and go but I took it a step further today. Full on makeup and a half up style-nothing special. Oh and I'm baking sweet rolls for breakfast. Yeah idk what is up with me today but I'm in a good mood

Uhmm...okay, I'm lost...

Anyways! Travie says hi to everyone. He's my red-headed dork teehee. I don't think he gets on here anymore though

Well I met with the ex-friend yesterday. But let me backtrack and explain the circumstances.

We were friends throughout highschool. There was 5 of us. A tight knit group. I never was close to my family really, as a teenager all the growing up and experimentation and stuff. So my friends were my family. It was their parents I went to with coming of age issues. I spent more nights at their houses then my own. This ex-friend, Marco, was the last one I was friends with of the group. I fought with the others over issues, their life and their life choices and eventually we all just stopped being friends. But with this ex-friend the problem was I told him the truth. The brutal honest truth. And he couldn't handle it. At the time, 2 years ago, his life circumstance was sketchy. His mom was unemployed. His job was in transition so no one was getting paid. they were in financial strains. And he was coming to terms with his sexuality too, he is gay. So the lifestyle path he was going down, wanting to party, sleep around, do drugs. It was becoming problematic. I never judged him. He asked me my opinion and I told him his smoking weed and partying was problematic and i couldnt stand behind it anymore. I asked him if he was going to do that stuff, do it before or after we hung out. He didnt. He asked me my opinion one day and i unleashed my honest feelings. I told him i felt it was irresponsible to spend whatever little money he had on drugs and liquor and partying. I didn't support it. I thought better of him and i saw potential in him that was just being hindered by his habits. I told him all this and he didn't want to hear it. He snapped. Cursed me out. TOld me i was being judgmental and he blamed my fiancee. He said i'm changing who i am cause of my fiancee. He had a falling out with my fiancee a few weeks prior to our fight , about his sexuality. My fiance was telling him this identity crisis is bullshit, he is gay and just be gay and be happy. But at the time Marco wasn't fully in terms with his sexual identity he was saying he was bi-sexual and stuff. SO they had a falling out about that. But our falling out was a couple weeks after and because he asked me how i felt and i told him. So after the night i was like listen just have a nice life for right now. And that was how things ended. BUt shortly after we stopped being friends, he was friend with all the other people we used to be friends with. So i felt betrayed. I felt for a long time, i was the odd person out so i was constantly blaming myself. I was like if they all are happy friends, obviously i was wrong if i was the odd person out. PPlus everything i was suggesting to him ( and the others) they ended up doing. He moved out his moms house like i said he should and got his drug and partying under control, like i suggested. So i was always like, why be mad at me and then go do the stuff u were mad at me for? Then going through everything with my dad and fiancee i had a lot of hurt and resentment in my heart. Cause we have mutual friends and i figured if they couldnt put petty difference aside then when could they? So thats when i started closing the door on all this u know. BUt then he messaged me a couple days ago. And yesterday he came by my house and we talked for a long time.

I explained all that^^ and more. I told him i honestly dont know what i expected from the conversation i just knew for my own heart i wanted to talk and let it all out. He told me he's not the same person anymore. At the time, he couldn't handle hearing the truth. He had his own issues, anger issues he's been through and worked though. He's in a different place now. ANd he JUST heard about everything i'm going through and messaged me right away and wanted to see me to know what was going on. So hearing that kind of changed things in my heart. Knowing he didnt know what i was going through and when he did he reached out and sent a message. That made me less angry and bitter. And honestly i dont want negativity in my life. Thats why i agreed to meeting. He even talked with my fiance and they apologized to each other and had a chat of their own. SO i said we can take things a day at a time. See where it goes. We've been casual texting this morning and it feels....normal. NOt awkward or anything.

Uhmm, wow....it sounds like you've gone through alot Tasha...Well, at least things got a little better in the end

Hmmm....I think I remember you saying something about him before. It sounds familiar. I'm glad you guys talked and that he seems to have turned his life around. He's reaching out to you at a time of YOUR need which is great! But like you said, take it one day at a time. Don't rush into it and stay guarded until you feel you can fully trust him. I had a falling out with my best friend. We've known eachother 11 yrs and 2 of those years we didn't talk at all. But thanks to myspace we started talking again and it took a while, but we slowly reached a good place and our friendship is stronger than ever. Sometimes distance is all you need. I hope things work out for you and that you don't end up hurt again.

Wilda and Tasha: I talked to Travie...he said he'll talk to mommie and see...

Tasha: I'm sorry that your differences in the past caused so much drama within your group, it wasn't fair to you for only stating your honest opinion. But, I'm glad you're working through it. I'm also really glad that there's less negativity in your life at the moment and that you friend is trying to be just that again, a friend.

My friend's dog that we're minding is driving me mental this morning. We have 7 birds at our house at the moment, 4 in an avery under the stairs my dad build, 2 on our upstairs balcony (they would have been put in the avery, but they're the type of birds that murder other birds...they're a bit too aggressive to play well with the other birds) and a neighbour's budgie. Well, our friend's dog has been trained to chase birds. The moment she turned up our birds went psycho. They were used to our dog, who was so gentle she didn't give a damn about the birds. They were just there. Well, the friend's dog won't leave them alone! Last night we had to bring the 2 aggressive birds inside so the dog wouldn't spend all night trying to get to them on the table. This morning my dad decided they'd be safe outside during the day...he's going to regret thinking that. My parents went shopping and I'm sitting in my room and hear a noise coming from the balcony. I go outside and the damn freaking dog has used a pot plant as a stepping stool to jump onto the table and terrorise the birds! They were shaking SO much!

aww poor birds! That's horrible. I mean I knwo it's not relaly the dogs fault if it was trained to chase birds, but the dog should have been trained that when you tell the dog no then that means no.

Speaking fo dogs, while I was out today, I saw several people jerk their dogs leash back. One of them was a really small dog and that just pissed me off even more. I mean how would they like it if someone had a leash around their kneck and just cause the dog wasn't looking at the owner when she wanted to turn she jerked the leash practically jerking the poor dog up in the air. I nearly slammed on breaks when I saw that! The other guy I can somewhat understand. It was in my neighborhood and he has a german sherpard and the dog kept trying to cross with cars going by but still, all it takes is a little bit of training and that'll stop.

Awe the poor birdies. I hope the birds are okay and the dogs dont eat em.

Okay, mew!!!! I'm lost, and I want my Travie.

Yeah, the birds are fine. When dad came home he moved the tables and pot plants so they're safely back outside again.

Finally going to the Sydney Show with my parents today to use the free ride passes I won. The bastards didn't contact me for almost a week and a half and my dad got pissy, so he rang them and complained, so we eventually learnt how to pick up the tickets and are going for at least an hour today. I would have gone with my sister, but she's hanging out with her boyfriend today, and while I offerred for him to come to (even though he's annoying and I'd rather not spend the day with him) HE didn't feel like coming, so my sister wasn't going to come either. It was SO nice of her to say she really wanted to use the tickets with me...but whatever.

Oh, now I know what everyone's talking about I'm so smart.

Tani!!!!!!!!!!!! Now you made me feel stupid because I don't know what everyone's talking about

Kim, sorry your sister didn't go with you. :-( I hope u had a good time anyway. i remember u explaining winning the tickets and what's its about and it sounded awesome and like lots of fun. I would of went with u in a heartbeat, lol.

Ugh now I feel even more out of the loop