DUDE i found this but she like wrote it like wat she think would happen the website is
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5398207/1/Spirit_Bound_Until_Death it like has so many chapters....
i only read the first 5.....
i didnt like it...
but wat do u think....
Chapter 1.
I could feel myself falling, but I couldn’t do anything about it. There was no sound around me, no smell in the air, nothing but emptiness. I suddenly felt cold, no hot, actually both...... and sick, very, very sick..... What’s happening to me? When will this end? It did.
A voice, who is it? Oh, God, I feel sick. What just happened?
“Rose?” Lissa said, “Rose, can you hear me, are you alright?”
“Lissa... wha....what happened?” I said. “What’s going on?”
“Rose, you passed out, you’re alright now. Just lay down for a little while longer, alright, you’re still fairly pale”
I had a million things going through my head, but I knew there was a reason for what just happened, I just had to figure out what it was. What was I doing? Last thing I remember was going to my room with Lissa. I know I opened the door... what then? Oh, someone gave me something, what did they give me? I don’t know what my face looked like, but Lissa was really confused.
OH! The package! Everything came flooding back. The stake, with its delicately etched handle, cold in my hands. The very same stake that I had driven into the heart of the only man I’ve ever loved. The note..... Oh, God, the note....
You forgot another lesson: Never turn your back until you know your enemy is dead. Looks like we’ll have to go over the lesson again the next time I see you – which will be soon. Love D.
I shivered as the chill ran down my spine. Lissa was holding me by the shoulders, looking deep into my eyes. I could see that she was talking; I just couldn’t hear anything she was saying. All I could hear was the sound of my heart, thumping so hard in my chest I thought it was going to break through my rib cage. Suddenly, my breath caught and I realised that I’d only just started to breathe again.
“Dimitri”, was all I could say. Finally I could hear the words coming out of Lissa’s mouth. She didn’t understand; how could she. As far as she knew, as far as any of us knew until a few minutes ago, Dimitri was dead. Killed by my hand.
“Rose,” Lissa said, “please tell me what’s going on, you’re frightening me.”
“I didn’t free him Liss, I failed him. I didn’t kill Dimitri.” Once those words were out of my mouth, my heart sank, it fell to the floor along with tears that I didn’t think I had left. I’d cried so much since that horrible night, I honestly didn’t think I had any tears left.
“What do you mean, Rose.”
“This,” I said, holding the silver stake up in her line of sight, “This is the stake that I used the night I escaped Dimitri. The night on the bridge.... I must have missed his heart in the struggle. Oh, Liss, I missed, I failed...” I could feel my heart breaking all over again, feel it ripping into even smaller pieces than I thought possible. I’ve suffered a lot of pain in my few short years, but nothing like this. Twice that night I had to watch his eyes go blank, twice I had to look into his beautiful face and know what I was going to have to do, both times my heart ripped a piece of itself off, how could I possibly have to go through that again.....?
Her face mirrored the horror that I felt in my soul, but through the bond I could feel her panic and confusion as well. She was also afraid for me and what this would do to me. She could already see the effects of the last five weeks..... Would I leave again....? Would I tell her if I did?
“Rose, can I see the note?” she said with her hand out.
I only just realised that I still had it in my hand. I gave it to her and slowly sat up on the floor where I fell and leant against the sofa. There were so many thoughts and feelings going on in my head, I couldn’t think straight so I just watched Lissa’s face as she read the few lines on the paper. Maybe I read it wrong and the events that kept playing in my head never actually happened, that it was like a bad dream or something.
Maybe I really was going crazy and the notes contents weren’t what I thought I read, I just had to watch Lissa’s face.... everything hinged on what it revealed. On one hand, a smile meant I was crazy, on the other, fear, would mean that I wasn’t and every horror that replayed in my dreams each night really did happen. I don’t know which one I wanted to see....
It was fear.
Fear showed on her face and then in an instant that same fear flowed through my body, ice cold fear. The love of my life was coming for me, and somehow, I think I may have done ‘enough’ for him to kill me now. I know he heard me when I said that I would always love him, I know he understood, but he was Strigoi now, incapable of feeling love, he proved that.
Just because he knew that I loved him, and maybe on some level, he might have understood why I did what I did, that didn’t mean that he would give me the same chance he did in Siberia.
While watching the play of emotions on Lissa’s face, I suddenly came to the realisation that there was a fight coming. A fight in which I was the central character, what I decided next was going to be important, so I had to decide correctly. I also had to push my anxiety, fear and most importantly, my love for Dimitri, into the furtherest part of my brain where it wouldn’t make me hesitate again.
“Lissa,” I said, “breathe... There’s work to do and I need you calm so that I can think properly. I need you to help me, can you do that?”
“What... Oh, yeah, Oh Rose, what are we going to do?” The look on her face was almost hopelessness... she really didn’t know how this was going to turn out. Neither did I but I knew that if there was going to be any way that things were going to work out, then I had to pull myself together and think. I walked to the darkened window; I needed space, some room to see what needed to be done first.
Fact number one: Dimitri was alive. Well sort of.
Fact number two: He was coming. He was coming here, for me. What he had planned was anyone’s guess, but neither option was particularly appealing to me.
Fact number three: After seeing how well he handled himself against a houseful of Strigoi in Siberia, I felt fairly sure that I was going to need help. I may have been able to stake him twice that night, but both times he had his guard down; I didn’t like my chances of that happening again. But whose help would I want? If I asked Mom, I’m pretty sure she would be all for “Three times a charm” staking, and she would inform the Guardian council that Dimitri was on his way, well I’m fairly sure she would tell them. If I asked my Moroi friends and my some of my close, fellow Dhampir graduates, would they? Should I even ask, ask them to put their lives in danger? My father???
Fact number four: There was a slight chance of there being an ‘other’ option, the fairy tale option, the one where Strigoi were returned to their former selves, their souls restored. Did I really want to open myself up for the disappointment if it all turned out to be just that, a fairy tale.....? Probably..... Definitely.
Fact number five: I didn’t know how much time I had before he would come for me, how much time I had to work on a plan. I needed to talk to someone; I needed someone else’s opinion.
Now, what do I do first? I looked up to Lissa and realised that she was on the phone, I hadn’t even heard it ring. When she realised that I was looking at her, she mouthed that it was Adrian on the phone. I told her to tell him to come over, he needed to know what was going on and I needed opinions. Once she said her goodbyes to Adrian, she ended the call.
It was a gamble, I know, but I knew I had to involve my mum. She was the rock that I needed, the voice of reason. I knew that in the heat of things, she would give me solid answers, not ones to make me feel better. I also needed Christian and Eddie.
One by one, they all walked into my room, each with the same worried, bewildered looks on their faces. They knew by the phone call that something wasn’t right, but they didn’t know what. And when they each saw Lissa’s and my faces, they definitely knew that something serious was unfolding.
Up until now, Lissa was the only person I had told everything to. Every sordid detail of the last five weeks. I now had to look into the eyes of those closest to me, and feel all the heart breaking pain again.
Chapter 2
My story had to begin at the start, the night that Lissa was tortured. I told them how I had to take the dark from Lissa and how it manifested in me. The feelings of pure hate that raged in me, how Dimitri had to fight to control me, to calm me down and how those dark feelings from Lissa had broken down the walls I’d had built around my feelings for Dimitri. I didn’t elaborate on what happened next, but they all got the gist.....
I didn’t mention the schools invasion or the following rescue; they all knew about that, so then I told them all about Russia and Siberia. I told them about meeting Sydney, Dimitri’s family, the unpromised and Abe..... I told them about Mark & Oksana too.
They all sat around me in utter silence as I told them about seeing Dimitri’s face again for the first time since he was turned. About being held hostage, about how he used my love for him against me, and finally about him feeding off me. How the days of constant endorphin rushes mixed with my feelings of love almost had me say yes to his proposal.
Looking up into their faces, I saw a mixture of emotions, but in Eddie’s face, I saw acknowledgment, he knew some of what I had felt, he had experienced that same endorphin rush and ensuing craving when we were held captive.
I could see that they were all wondering how I was able to escape if I was so drugged out so I told them of the day I was left alone, just long enough for my mind to clear of the fog, for my mind to snap back to reality and show me that I needed to get out of there.
I then described the pain of looking into Dimitri’s face and seeing it go slack as I drove the wooden chair leg that I used as a stake into his chest, the battle with the other Strigoi in the house, falling and hurting my ankle, the maze, the bridge...... the second staking.... the second piercing of my heart along with his....
It was then that I realised that I had tears streaming down my cheeks; my voice had become so quiet as my throat constricted around those painful words. I felt so drained; my soul was so tired, so very, very tired. I have already felt the loss of Dimitri three times in the last five weeks, in the caves, and two stakings, I didn’t know if I could stand a fourth time. How could anyone withstand so much pain and come out whole..... It just wasn’t possible, was it?
Then Lissa showed them all the parcel that had arrived less than an hour ago. The stake with its original engravings, and the note..... I had noticed when I was telling them about what happened when I was with Dimitri, my mother’s face got angrier and angrier, but after reading the note, I would go as far as saying it was now murderous.
For the next few long minutes, one could hear a pin drop in my room, it was that quiet. Without a word said, everyone knew the severity of the situation that we know found ourselves in. Each person was now playing their own scenario of the future in their heads.
“We have to tell the other Guardians,” my mother finally said. “They have to make arrangements on how we are going to deal with this. Dimitri is going to be a formidable opponent and every conceivable outcome must be planned for.” As I looked at her now hard face, I knew that she was worried. I really didn’t need to see that, the thing I needed most from her was her strength, not this.
“Mom,” I said, “There is a chance that Victor Dashkov’s brother knows something that could save Dimitri, return his soul. As you now know, I’ve tried twice to free him, and twice I’ve failed. I don’t know if I can do it a third time. I don’t think there’s enough of my heart left for that. I have to find Robert Doru; I have to know for certain. I won’t be able to kill him if I think there is any chance of getting him back. And as you know, that uncertainty will be enough to get me killed.”
She knew that I was right. So did everyone else. Something came over everyone at that moment, a sort of calm. We all knew that the only way we were going to get information on Robert was through Victor and that information was not going to come cheap, or easy. For the first time, I looked at Adrian. His face was almost unreadable, but I could see he was hurting.
“Adrian,” I said, “Can we talk?” I didn’t really know what I was going to say, but I had to say something, to explain. We left the others to talk in the room while we went for a walk outside. I had a feeling that this was going to be a private conversation.
As soon as we left the guest quarters building, I felt him come up behind me and put his arm around my waist. We walked a fair way like that until we were away from other people who were walking around. He was the first to talk.
“I can’t imagine what you went through Rose. The last time I came to you, I could see there was something wrong and I did nothing. I left you alone. I was your only lifeline and I left you all alone. I thought you were drunk, getting on with your without us. I judged you without knowing all the facts. I’m so sorry, can you ever forgive me?” A tear spilt from the corner of one of his eyes and in that second I could see just how much he cared for me. I turned in front of him so that I could see his face completely and I reached out to wipe the tear from his face.
“Adrian,” I said, “There’s nothing to forgive. I was so mean to you, each time you came to me. I could have told you where I was a number of times and I didn’t. You have nothing to feel bad about, okay...”
“But I knew there was something wrong Rose, your aura told me that and I still walked away. You would never have done that. You would never have walked away from the one you loved when you knew there was something wrong. I did.” He pulled away from me and strode off to the trees that bordered the school.
I caught up to him easily and followed him in. “Adrian, I don’t know what to tell you. There are so many things going through my head at the moment. I know, as a Strigoi, Dimitri is essentially dead; and I know that I need to go forward in my life without him. I’ll also admit that there is a part of me that wants to take things further between us, see where it leads, but knowing that there is a chance, no matter how tenuous, that I can restore his soul and have him back in my life, it’s something that I can’t ignore.” He stopped walking then and turned to face me.
“You need to know if there is any truth about Robert Doru.” Said Adrian.
“Yes,” looking down to the ground. “I have to know. My heart will never heal if I don’t find out for sure, one way or the other. I don’t want to hurt you. You mean a lot to me. But I need you to understand that I have to deal with my feelings for Dimitri before I can feel anything for someone else.” Looking up at him, I knew he understood. “It wouldn’t be fair for me or you. If it turns out that regaining his soul is not possible, then I have to free him, I have to kill him if I can. After what happened in Siberia, and his note, I know that this will only ever end with one of us dead. If we are able to free him, then I can start to heal. And then if anything develops with us, then we both will know that there is no-one else.”
With that, he smiled one of his devious smiles, and reached out to put his hands either side of my face. I wasn’t sure what he was going to say but then in one quick movement his lips found mine. The conflicting emotions that ran through my body were seriously confusing. In some way, I wanted to pull away, in others I didn’t. I went with the later and kissed him back. It was soft and warm, gentle but urgent. Slowly he pulled his face away with a smile, just enough to focus on my eyes.
“That was just so you know what there is waiting for you,” he said. “I love you Rose. I have for quite some time. I know you don’t feel the same way about me.... yet.... But I love you enough to know that this is something that you have to do. So I’ll bide my time and I’ll help any way that I can, no matter which way this goes. If you can save Dimitri, then I will stand aside and love you as a friend, if that’s what you want. But if you can’t, then I will be there waiting for your heart to heal.” He then leant back down and kissed me again, this time with more urgency. He needed me to know how much he meant his words. And I did. He let go of my face and pulled me into an embrace that in some way I didn’t want to leave.
I’d never seriously considered Adrian boyfriend material before, but in that instant, I knew that he was someone that I could share my life with. Even with all drinking and smoking, I knew I could trust him. But first, there was more pain to deal with, physical, emotional and mental. Hopefully, I will come out of it in one piece.
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Subject: Re: SB First chapter 
Sat Dec 05, 2009 1:04 pm
I want adrian in spirit bound as her new Bf but i dont at the same time.... 
