new student, any volunteers to show me round the academy? :)x

Chloe: I'm not blaming myself. I'm simply not understanding why I didn't see any of the signs. If you tell her anything just tell her that I got involved with someone who wasn't who I thought he was. I'll be sure to thank them love. I won't think it will, all I can do is try to make sure it won't happen. And I hope you guys like the new me.

Sam: Things happen my love. I'm sorry you lost your job dear. You seem to have bad luck with that. I hope you find one.

Rhia: Welcome love.

Ela: Things happen my love.

Sam- dont feel bad. I've been job hunting ( halfheartedly admittedly) for years. You have the experience. The job will come. Try not stress about it. Hope you have a great weekend with you father. and Congrats to your sister graduating! Woohoo.

Chloe- It's okay love. It was just SUPER stressful and hard cause I was away, a million miles away. But, it's not that much better being back cause there isn't much i can do.
Gracie makes me smile. I'm glad she isn't mad at you anymore

Becca- I'm proud of you for getting out the situation. Many people wouldn't. Especially people like us, who love so hard and are so so faithful and loyal. Sometimes we are kind to a fault. It takes more courage though to walk away then stay in the relationship. Sometimes it's hard to be believe we were ever in those situations and blame ourselves for not seeing or being aware sooner. But, it's like the saying goes... love is blind. Oh it's so very blind. But, i wouldn't have it any other way. Your stronger and know your true character now. These experience are what you make it. Good. Bad. All of it. Just use it to make wiser choices and decisions and offer advice to those when you can. It's all any one can do. No use having regrets or doubts in your smarts. Give yourself the credit that is due.


Everyone- so last night my daddy was transferred to a bigger hospital, the hospital they are going to do surgery to give him mechanical heart valves. The heart surgeon will monitor him for afew days and keep treating the infection in his blood. The blood work shows the infection clearing up so they are hoping next week to give him surgery. But, the transfer was terrible on my dad mentally. He called me a million times ALL night. HE kept asking for my mother " where is she, she said she was gunna be here at 6 o clock, she said she would hold my hand"...awe. I had to try to explain to him that it was the middle of the night, he wasn't going for surgery and my mother will see him after work. But he didnt get much of it, or maybe he did cause he stopped calling. Or maybe he just fell asleep. Or got distracted with TV.

I was supposed to go this morning. Which is why i was up since 530am. But my brother made a big stink that he doesnt know where the hospital is and he doesnt want to get lost and be late for work. And it's so stupid visiting hours aren't until 2pm. So i was just gunna wait in the lobby or cafe ( i never been to this hospital so dont know what they have) all morning and afternoon until i'm allowed to go see my dad. But since my brother was making a big stink i just said forget. I'll spend 40 bucks on a cab. I really can't afford to spend that money. My mother is telling me just to stay home. My dad will be nervous and freaking out regardless and she will go after work. ( 6 o clock) but i just dont feel right not going. But, she gave me a bunch of errands to do, but it;s so early i cant do them yet ( they all are going outside to the store, bank, mail things that sort of stuff) so i have to wait unil 9am. So i'm sitting in bed drinking coffee. I SHOULD be cleaning my room. I still haven't unpacked from Texas. And i did laundry yesterday and made the mistake of NOT putting clothes away right away. But part of the reason is cause i dont know what to do with everything... like the texas bags.. its ALL summer clothes. Mostly new stuff so i have NO room in my closets for them. I've been to tried and drained to deal with it. So my room is a mess. lol.

p.s. my brother bought me the harry potter blu ray box set of all the movies for my birthday.

Tasha: Thanks dear. You're right, a lot of people wouldn't but I was lucky to have friends who care enough to make see I need to get out of it. I don't regret this at all. I just don't understand why I didn't see it sooner. Even when I really should've been getting out, when things began getting worse, I saw it some how. I wrote poetry about it and yet I never put two and two together and made the decision I should've. I don't understand why. I guess it's because I wanted so badly to believe everything. IF there's one thing I know though, never again will this happen.

I wish your Dad the best of luck with his surgery. I get the whole being there thing. When my Grandpa was in the hospital and started getting worse I wanted to take off school and fly down here as soon as I could.

Tasha I hope that your dad gets better

So what's up Becca

I'm just trying to get my life back in order. You?

I'm 16

That's cool

I know!! Hope everything gets better

Rhia: Thank you my dear, so do I. Hopefully soon they will.

Tasha: Happy birthday love.

Thank You Love :-D

You're welcome Becca

Happy birthday Tasha

Thank you Rhia

We had my family birthday party today

drum roll please *looks around and hears a cricket*

Never mind on that, I got $245.00 from family!!!

Hey ladies sorry I haven't been on in forever -blushes- been kinda crazy at my house...anyways, a lot had been going on, thanks to a certain friend suggesting it, Christian dumped, but oh well, f*** it, nothing lasts at this age xp so forget a**es like them xp it doesn't matter. Humm...Travis, Christian and Shea are dead and gone. Hopefully I get my license soon. Gonna be a junior next year, getting ungrounded this week, hopefully. Might go to Daisy's house and sleep over there and go to Phase 1's pool in WF. Watching MTV right now Teen Wolf comes on soon. I'm in Alternative School xp -shrugs- cruddy thing is, Shea and Travis are there too -.-' anyways, umm...that's the briefest run-down of what's happened to me lately. How is everybody? I hope things are well and everyone's summer will be amazing bye lovelies -kisses- muah xp -oops-

That must suck Tani

hey everyone! I;m just popping in to say hi and that I miss you all! *kisses* I'm good .. my computer broke sadly so I'll be on even less
I hope everyone is good

Oh your computer broke! That sucks!

You guys know what else sucks? Being sick on the last day of school

I read that last post very quickly and you do not want to know what I thought it said haha!

Yeah it won't even turn on I'm at my mom's work... supposed to be helping her but she isn't telling me what to do :/

I'm not gonna ask what you thought!!

Sorry about the lack of communication between you and your mum

Just stopping in to say hi
To all those whose birthdays I have missed, sorry and HAPPY BDAY! Hope you had/have great days!
Lots of Love

thanks Chloe :-)

Happy Birthday Tasha!

How is everyone??

Thanks Chloe

I'm fine Sammy, and I have a new bike

Im sad. Between my daddy's very poor health and being in the hospital and my fiance' having to resume cancer treatments. Im just sad.

I'm sorry dear. I know partially how you feel....

My Grandpa doesn't have much time left....