new student, any volunteers to show me round the academy? :)x

Chole: We had a your own clothes day...and a fancy dress day on Friday...a coffee morning, pics of 8 teachers are babies/toddlers and we had to guess who was which baby lol! I did watch bits of it...those videos were very sad but i loved it when Graham Nortan had that red chair + red button with him lol! That was hilarious! I actually need to watch the rest of Part 3 on iplayer.

@Tania.. I'm sorry Darling! I only say it because I care about you and I don't want to see you get hurt. I know what it is like to love someone and want to stay with them no matter what. But you have to remember you are important as well. I don't want to see you get hurt

Leela: things are getting better. and its because of how bad i got whenever we had fights and left each other, and my mom doesnt like that. and when she was nineteen, my birth father left her, and she doesnt want that happening with me and Shea because apparently, hes already showed her that "he'd leave" but when i say that my mom dislikes him, he always says something like, over time, maybe thatll change. i really hope it does change.

Sammy: thank you for being concerned, but im staying with him no matter what happens. and dont worry, hes told me to be straight forward and tell him if something happens, to tell him how i feel and what i dislike. i can tell hes trying. even though some bad things might not change, he is atleast making an effort to be committed, and i really love that about him.

Everyone minus touchan because this involves him: okies, so, afew days ago, we were talking, and we started talking about rings because in a dream, there were rings involved with the both of us...and last night when i asked if he was serious about getting me one, he said yes. when i said that he really wasnt joking, he said no. and then he said he didnt have it "yet" soooooo...now, im just like wow, seriously...and the only thing is, im curious on whether its a promise ring or something....

Like Sam said, we just care about you. As for the ring, I hope it's a promise ring cause no matter how much you love eachother right now, an engagement is WAY too soon. Whatever happens Tania, I wish you both the best and hope everything works out for you.

Thanks for the concern for my friends daughter girls. She's better. Turns out she's teething. She'll be 2 in may and she's getting her 2 year molers in. Poor baby's gums hurt

I really need to get y'alls names down cus i have no idear who is who >.>...sowwie lol

OK lol...well, i am Ela. it says so in my name love

Wolf9474 wrote:

I really need to get y'alls names down cus i have no idear who is who >.>...sowwie lol

My name is Tasha.


Tania- As relationships mature you'll learn the superficial stuff doesn't matter. The ceremonies, the rings... all of that is superficial. I don't put much weight in the ring and what they mean. A promise rings or a engagement ring is nice but they are just rings. Without the real thing within the relationship they mean nothing. ANd if you got the relationship, then u dont need those things. Case and point, the hubby offered to buy me a ring multiple times. I told him no. I dont have an engagement ring though we have been engaged since summer. It doesn't matter to me. Just being in my relationship does and i don't need a ring to validate or prove that. We prove it everyday . I rather just wear a plain simple wedding band when we say our vows and get our marriage certificate . Especially after all we've been through, all that stuff is mundane.

HI!!!!! I am random Taco......i havnt had any sugar!!!! i miss mii life from when i had friends who didnt care about who was with who and yada yada yada.....

I am Sam ^__^

or Sammy depending on what you'd like to call me

RANDOM TACO IZ BETTER!!!!! buahahahahahahaaa

posting again

So I'm waiting impatiently for my pictures and videos to upload. I went to my lil cousins birthday party today. It was so much fun. And it was a children party. My cousin hired Uncle magic, the hip hop magician , the magician who all the celebrities call. ( that's what his commercial says lol). We actually got the guy from the commercial. Which was pretty cool. And he was just an ordinary joe and it was so much fun. The kids loved him. I had fun too. I took almost 200 hundred pictures today but taking pictures of a magician and little people is SO hard only about 30 of them are GOOD. I tried the sports feature i even tried the 3 pictures in a row thing. That helped cause at least one of the 3 pictures would catch a child. My dad is soo funny, cause the birthday boy was my little cousin and he's kinda big...and he was running around. My dad said " oh shit, he runs fast for a fat boy" My daddy had everyone laughing lol. SO now, i'm trying to upload everything to face book and its taking forever. I uploaded from the camera to my computer in 30 seconds but face book is taking 30 minutes.

But it was good to get out of the house. My dad and my hubby were ecstatic to get out of the house too. But being around so many children has tired me out. I'm ready for my bed.

>___> ok got it

Wilda: yeah, we discussed it and he said hes thinking about it

Tasha: i know love, of course, thats exactly how it is with us pretty much. its just slightly complex. and really, it helps keep other guys away from me

Sammy, Ela, Wilda, Rhia, Becca, Leela, Tasha, Kim, Mariss, Amera and CC: im going to bed, night

Shea: Good night, amai yume. Ai shiteru see you in the morning -kisses your cheek-

well I feel ignored and unloved and I'm not just talking to the girls *cough cough, Dominoes, cough cough*

Wolf9474 wrote:

I really need to get y'alls names down cus i have no idear who is who >.>...sowwie lol

I'm Wilda.

Tasha-Glad you all had a great time at the birthday party. Sounds liek your cousin had one awesome party

Rhia-Why do you feel ignored and unloved??

HI everyone. Hope you all have a wonderful week!

HAPPY HAPPY MONDAY MY LOVES

... 2 more days then I'm 21 baby!!! now to make Ela her banner

Happy Monday Sam! ( and everyone!)

And Sam, ohhh la la the big 21... are you excited? Any plans?

I had a good weekend and today I'm trying to get a handle on all the bills and administrative stuff. One bill ( the bill for the anesthesia for the hubby's brain surgery) had me on hold listening to elevator music for 20 mins and then forwarded me to a voice mail box. Bah. But, all the bills I dont care about. I just call em up and tell him medicaid is pending and they note the system. When medicaid is approved we're told they will pick up EVERYTHING. So shrug. What i'm worried about is I'm calling the hubby's docs office, I'm hoping they will fax my pharmacy a prescription. If not, I have to go to a local doctor to get a prescription for the hubby's seizure medication. The hubby's doc reapplied for this program for that medication in which we get it free for 6 months cause they were giving me hard time. so we are definitely going to get it but in a week or two cause they just reapplied for us last week, but the hubby only has medication for 3 more days. So thats cutting it too close to the wire for me. I dont want to go to the local doc cause we have to pay a 50 dollar co-payment and then the medication costs 55 dollars. WE dont have that kind of money to be spending. We will if we have too you know. But i'm hoping we dont have too.

woo...21 very soon Sammy!

and thanks love

Sam-That's right, the big 2-1 on Wednesday. Plans?

Tasha, I hope they fax over the prescription. I just don't understand them making you pay money for simply going in and getting it when they can just fax it or call it in. That's like when you go to the dr's to find out text results that and everything came back fine yet instead of telling you over the phone, they make you go in I understand if something is wrong or off but when they sit down say "everything looks great you can go now" then thats a waste of money and everyone's time.

Wilda everything worked out great with his medication. His oncologist office was more than happy to call in a order in our local pharmacy. They didnt have too, because this medication is for his seizures and technically she isn't in charge of that side of his condition, she is charge of only the cancer side. But, she is awesome. Her office is the one that reapplied to a program for us even though technically she doesn't have too. She is so nice. I wish more doctors and offices were like her. they are going beyond the call of duty and being so supportive and helpful. I feel like buying them a nice big cookie. lol.

Not sure what i'm doing just yet.. but i am going to think of something fun and awesome.. get in a bit of trouble

Tania: That's what I thought. And Tasha is right. I don't want to sound... How do I put it.. There's no way I can put this without sounding heartless and bitchy and harsh but I'm saying it because I care and this is one of the hardest things I'll ever say to you. it was hard saying it to Davian but maybe.... Maybe you do need help, like professional or a counselor. I'm saying this because I care. I convinced Davian to go and he's gotten so much better. Depression is nothing to be ashamed about. And as for your parents not liking him, it happens. Davian's mom hated me when we first dated, it took her two and a half years to warm up to me and be civil when I wasn't around because she learned it was tearing her and Davian's relationship apart. It also helped that she finally saw that I was helping him through his issues, not causing them. How old are you love?

Sam: I just looked at my previous message and realized that I posted to you twice. Haha. Is everything ok at home dear?

Tasha: Thanks love. I think I'll just deal. I don't want to go to a psych because I know they'll diagnose me with depression. Tania, if you're reading this I might sound like a hypocrite but keep reading and you'll understand. I don't want to go because no one in my family knows about my past. And if they diagnose me, they'll want to put me on meds and I don't want that. I don't want to have to rely on something to help me be happy. If I'm happy I wanna be sure I'm actually happy and it's not just the meds. I have nothing against getting help, but I don't want to take the chance of being forced to take meds.

Rhia: I love you. (:

Wilda: I was so jealous that you got to go and then I totally forgot to tell you that I'm sorry that you couldn't. Thank you girls for constantly saying omething in your posts so I was reminded.

Chole: Not your fault that things are hetic, it'll be that way for a better part of a year or so, maybe more. Thanks love. Send her my love. Are you and Greg a thing? *crosses to fingers to symbolize together* *crosses other fingers in hope that CVhole has finally found a good guy*

Shea: Are you ok dear? I'm Becca by the way.

Cc: Where are you love?

Sam: Happy early birthday in case I'm not on tomorrow. (:

Becca: i am currently fifteen, about to turn sixteen, and i dont need counseling, i feel really at ease lately. and uhmm, you dont sound harsh at all, your just being honest, and i get that. all of you are honest, and thats what i like about all of you.

Rhia: dont be, i'll tell Shea to say hi to you later when he wakes up.

Sammy, thats wonderful, i cant wait for that to happen for you.

Everyone: i am sooo tired x.x

Becca, actually you needn't fear those things. Doctors can't force you to take medication if you dont want too. You are in all your rights to decline medication. Though you might not even need medication. There is tons of alternative methods docs use these days. And maybe something like anxiety meds can be used to help overcome fears and such and not something that will influence your emotions like happiness. That's stuff you can work out with a doctor. ANd by law, your parents don't have to know what you talk to your doctor about. They dont even have to know why you want go, past or any of that. It can be 100% confidential. If you tell the doc not to tell your parents something, they are forbidden by law. The docs will be annoying urging you to tell your family but you dont have too. And the docs can't force you into any treatments or a facility or anything. Not unless you are expressing very suicidal tendencies. But you'll be surprised how much just talking to someone, a professional can help. They have a knack for hitting the right marks.

Tania: The way I see it, you're too young for even a promise ring, but that's my opinion and own personal experience. Davian tried giving me one and I just wasn't to have something physical telling me that one day we'll get married. Sure, a lot of my friends and family say it, and I might believe it, but I'm not ready for something like that. Truthfully, I don't think you are either. And I'm glad you understand. I was so scared it'd come out the wrong way, but love, just because you feel at ease lately, doesn't mean you don't need counselling. I feel at ease a lot but Tasha's right, I probably should go see a counselor.

Tasha: The most I will say is that I'll think about it. I won't promise anything else.

Morning girls.

Happy Birthday Sam!