new student, any volunteers to show me round the academy? :)x

Wilda and Sam: Thanks you two. I'm slightly better.

Becca: I promise. I already have so much scars because I did them over Shea...and I wanted to do so much more last night...I cried for hours before I passed out at 2 but then I woke up at 4 and haven't slept since then. Me and Shea are just.....I don't know anymore...all I know is that this ache in my chest isn't going away. And neither will these scars.....

Tania: Like Becca said...she's here for you, so am I, so are all of us love some of my friends call me the therapist if that helps lol. We are here if you need us xx

ooOoo I REALLY love the second banner Sam.

Becca, I'm okay. Not my best but def not my wrost. How are you?

Tania, I'm glad you are better. Even if it's only slightly. Thats better than worse. HUGS.

HI Ela!

Tania... I know what its like to be so low emotionally as I said before I am here if you need me. Same goes for Becca I'm sorry you are bleh .. and everyone else for that matter

@Wilda Thank you! Lis made it for me

@Wilda hehe....hello to you too love...how are you? Long time no speak!

Ela-It does feel like its been a while since we've talked. I'm okay. A hottie dominos guy just delivered pizza so I'm better now How are you?

ohhh nothing better than a Hottie Pizza boy

Mmm I agree although the pizza comes really close.

@Wilda That is just ahh! Omg! How did you manage to get a hot delivery lad lol? Am very good thanks just found out that The Rocky Horror Picture Show is on TV this weekend! So going to watch that

I have no idea. Usually the pizza guys are either older or not so hot but he def fell in the hot category. Not the hottest guy I've ever seen but still hot.

Lol! At least you've hot guys over there...we got none here!

lol I'm sure you have some hot guys over there. You just may not have met them yet

Hehe...well, we got gorgeous guys, but not hot guys...and most of them are gay! Not fair really...all the good looking lads are gay here

haha I think its that way everywhere.

Lol...ye, but every guy you see here is either a 'No way!' 'Gay...' or 'Taken :/ '

And if the extremely hot guy isn't gay or taken, he's a heartbreaker.

Ye...i had one, but lost him :/

Ela: Thank you. I know I'm not saying much, but still. Lol, lately I've been hanging with Tayor and he's sorta cute, in a broody way, buthe's gay.

Sam: Thanks and, I'm loving the banners. That goes for everyones. I don't know howto make them, plus, I can't since mobile internet is cruddy.

Wilda: Thank you, and I'll send an email to you if I ever get in a power struggle. How are you?

Rhia: What have you been up to Wifey2?

Everyone: Guess right now, me and Shea are just...totally not happening...at least, from what I can tell at the moment. Lately, my crying doesn't stop until I pass out or I'm in school or around people I don't like showing how torn I am...oh well. But, might have a girls day out tomorrow with Wifey1 and her mom, might sleep over too. Should be fun, lol.

Tania: Just hold in there girl...and if you ever need me, email me, PM me, whatever but for now, just enjoy yourself and take your mind off it.

Sorry about you and Shea Tania Stay strong hun. It will be okay. May not seem like it now, but trust me, it will be okay. And I'm okay.

Ela: Okay, if I ever need to, I will. And, yeah, I'll try to...

Wilda: Thanks...yeah, I guess you were right not to trust him when he came on. Thing is...what scares and hurts my heart and my soul and just, me in general is...what he did to himself after last night...

Tania I have been in that "boy" situation and its never fun. I know how much it can hurt. but you will heal, I am still healing but every day gets better and better.. if you want I'll PM you and tell you.

Tania Belikova wrote:

Ela: Okay, if I ever need to, I will. And, yeah, I'll try to...

Wilda: Thanks...yeah, I guess you were right not to trust him when he came on. Thing is...what scares and hurts my heart and my soul and just, me in general is...what he did to himself after last night...

*concerned mother Hen voice* I won't pry for details, but is he okay?

yeah, I was wondering that too I hope he is okay.


Random but I had this friend who could go very very low emotionally and was in a bad place, well I was talking to my other friend and she's like "oh she is probably killing herself" .... I wanted to kill her. because I knew my other friend was really capable of that and that scares me more than anything. cause even if we don't talk as much as before if she wasn't in this world I don't know what I would do.

Wilda and Sam: I-I'm not entirely certain..... He PMed me on here apologizing and saying he knew it wasn't enough and that he doesn't like saying goodbye to me and that he...carved my initial "T" on his right leg and my nickname "KITTY" on his other one with the serated knife he uses to cut with...I wanted to reach out and comfort him and just ignore what happened, but...when something similar to this new problem and the ones from the past happens...it's hard to ignore your scared, broken, abused, torn, ripped apart, tortured, burned, stabbed, and seriouslh agonized heart. So...we talked a little today until I finally cracked and told him to stop. He told me not to talk to him because Ashlee and that she went ahead and told him to back off me or she'll beat the crud out of me. And that if he really wanted us to get serious, that things were gonna have to change. That when and if he wanted to be committed and actually show that he's willing to and shows me that he's really trying, that we could talk again. If not, then, this would really be goodbye.......