new student, any volunteers to show me round the academy? :)x

Becca ~ Oh shit girl, im so sorry i wasn't on here when all that was going on! I know you are okaa with it, but im still sorry. But hey...woooooop enjoy being a singleton like moi And lmao Ela, i definately do that And, im like you Becks...naturally flirty. So you sure seem like you're coping and to me thats a good thing Im sorry you didn't get your first kiss

Rhia ~ Ahhh, i see Well atleast you can come one then How have you been my dear, I haven't spoken to you in ages!

Ash ~ LMAO! God, that was the funniest comment I have read, and it definately lightened my spirits! It's so good to hear from you again love Im sorry that you aren't really enjoying your holiday but YOU WERE IN A PICTURE WITH A MONKEY!! Thats gotta count for something 'ey? And damn, being pregnant sounds hard, and you didn't seem to be getting much rest until later Aw, Mac's already liking the disney then huh? Oh dear, Im still laughing at your first paragraph! "Holy fucking sandals" dear me Is your best friend a guy btw? I love guy best friends Weirdo, i know?! Anyways, say 'Hi' to him


For my week I've been working. Gracie seems to be doing a lot better. And we are getting more hopeful I told my parents to act like parents towards Gracie or leave. I don't care how they act to me anymore, and neither does my older siblings, but Gracie deserves more than they are giving her now. They didn't even touch Charlie?! I mean WTF?! Oh, and btw my parents chose the second option...to leave! But I mean im more angry than sad tbh They are idiots. Im just glad I have siblings and house-staff. And ofcourse you guys i feel horrified at the thought of young children who are getting left now. Infact...A-ha! Idea! And you guys are going to be my witnesses, ima give money and visit orphanages! I want to help as best I can

love you guys

Ash, you are like 15 to 30 mins away from me. I live on the edge of kissimmee

Chloe, I am soooo sorry your parents chose to leave. I can't imagine not being there for my kids but at least Gracie has wonderful siblings to be there and take care of her. I am glad she is better. Big hugs to you both. Tell her hi for me.

I am currently on my cell so I can't really catch up with everyone. It's a bit difficult to look on here on the cell. I can't seem to keep a good connection to the net. I'm lucky to get 5 mins at a time. Nothing new here though except I cut about 5 inches off my hair. It's now right below my shoulders instead of mid back. It feels weird lol My daughter also got her cut to above shoulders a few weeks ago. I'm thinking about getting another inch or 2 cut off and layered. it definitle needs layering. Well, I've got some errands to run so I'm gonna go.

Hope everyone is well, have a great weekend! Xoxo

yep the screens getting replaced next week so then it'll be good as new

Chloe: OH MY GODS CHLOE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *catapults self at you in a tackle-hug* i missed you sooooooo much

Ela: hey Ela thanks for the support and i can still come on here but the thing is thee screen's cracked from the inside and i think that the cracks are getting bigger
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That it why we close our eyes when we Cry,Kiss,and Dream
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I wish for:
Wings to let me Fly
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I wish for:
Spells to keep me Safe

Rhia: No problemo amigo. But wow, it's cracking on the inside!!

Chole: OMG, no offence, but your parents are really stupid doing that!! Hope your all OK. x

Chloe ~ I'm sorry your parents left but I think Gracie is in better hands. She has wonderful, loving siblings so there is no doubt in my mind that she will have a great life. Give gracie a hug for me and I'm sending one to you too.

Rhia ~ I'm glad your computer can get fixed. I'm going to get a new one in the next month or so. The one I have now is a bit messed up.

Wilda ~ WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO GET YOUR INERNET FIXED? lol I bet your hair looks great. I'm thinking about getting my hai cut soon.

I really don't have plans for this weekend. So I might just take the time to relax. School for me starts Monday but I'm not worried. I almost have everything that I need. I just have to print some papers out then I'll be ready. Can you believe that I am actually excited for school. Geez, I'm such a nerd.

Chole: don't feel bad for me love. It's fine. As for your parents... I'm not even going to go there. I know what that's like.
Ash: enjoy your time in Florida.
Wilda: I saw that on Facebook have a good time at the park if you go.
Rhia: I've missed you bunches love.
Amy: I wish you the best of luck.
Everyone: if I sound a bit down or bland or not normal I'm sorry. Right now almost every part of me is in pain. We had our color guard lock in. My knees are swollen and I look like I've been abused. Even my feet have bruises. All from accidentally hitting myself with my flag pole. It doesn't help that my meds that are supposed to reduce the fluid in my knees that is causing them to swell isn't working. And for some reason I'm brusing really easily. Davian poked me twice on my knee cap three days ago and it bruised really bad.

Becca: BECCA you are not supposed to accedentily hit yourself with a flag-pole and you better get better or i will be super mad at you
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The best things in Life are Unseen
That it why we close our eyes when we Cry,Kiss,and Dream
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I wish for:
Wings to let me Fly
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I wish for:
Spells to keep me Safe

Becca: That's pretty silly that's you've managed to hit yourself with a flag-pole but get well soon. x

Rhia: I don't MEAN too. It just kind of happens. And I don't like it anymore than you do. Trust me. I mean, I like jeans and all but I like capris and shorts too and... I just... I look like I've been ABUSED... So I DO NOT feel comfortable wearing those right now... Good news though... The swelling in my knees went down so my meds finally kicked in...
Ela: Just a bit... It doesn't help that I'm uncordinated and a bit of a klutz. This Thursday, me, Davian and our friend Forrest (among others) were helping out with little kids after school, and after we were done we were going upstairs and as we were walking I said, just watch, I'll fall UP the stairs. What happens? Two seconds later... I fall UP the stairs. I'll try.

Becca ~ You better be careful, luv. I don't want you getting seriously injuried. I'm glad your meds are finally working but maybe it's time for a new kind, but that is something you are going to have to discuss with your dr. Get well soon, hun.

God, you're like what my best friend used to be years ago. She was like cursed with being a clutz, but it was hilarious because she was left with a mark or a bruise. It was incredible, but the curse has now left her and she hasn't done anything else since, hopefully, it won't return to her.

Amy: I think I took them too early yesterday. I'm as careful as can be.
Ela: its not that bad anymore.

Becca: Gdgd anyway and get well soon x

Thanks.

If there is anyone who loves Generation Dead check out the website that is in my signature. It's not very lively right now but we are trying to fix that.

*Crying uncontrolable*

Omg! I'm back home! I am watching Josie and the Pussycats for like the billionth time! Bianca loves it, so who am I to take my child's happiness away?

Speaking of children... I never want to see another todler that is not mine... ever... again. But that's not why I say, "speaking of children," I say it because, and I knew Wilda was right, me and Jeff changed the name of the baby. I know, I know how are you going to know what to call her right? Well here is her new name: Bianca Darlene. What do you think?

I think she might enjoy having a name that pretty.

As to vacay. THe last day, Friday, we went to the magic kingdom. I got a pair of earings that dangle and have the MM symbol. And some skull ones for my second hole. I love them both so hopefully Bianca won't rip them from my ears. *prays really hard!* I got Bianca the cutest FSU onesie! Her adopted parents love her new name, so they are even more excited. They are actually moving, which sucks because Andre told me this as soon as I got back. They are moving to Maine and they won't move until a month after she is born. So that's why I was allowed to watch her for three months, but no as soon as December first rolls around she will be leaving.

But they will bring her down every summer to see me, so I guess that is okay.

But anyway, I need to let you guys know something. I found a new guy. His name is Andre and well, we kind of have been hanging out for a while.

He is really something of a dream come true. He doesn't hit me and when he does get mad he holds my hand and counts to ten. And when he sees me, it's like I'm his world... He never lets me be alone. We have been texting non stop since I got on the road Sunday. He and I haven't said I love you and haven't kissed, but whenever he brushes against me or touches my face, it's like a million bolts of electricity are running through us.

I sound so stupid, haha, I'm sorry I kind of get lost when I write about him.

But anyway. Wilda, that is so crazy! I must have been to Kissimee at least more than twenty times! My sister loved to misspronounce it!

I LOVE YOU ALL SO FUCKING MUCH!
okaa, well i had to get that out?! you have all been so wonderful to me and I seriously can't even begin to explain what you all mean to me. I know they were idiots. Its hard to say what I feel towards them, because i don't even know myself. i expect it makes it easier that they have never really been a dominant part of our lives, but it obviously still hurt. i dont know whether i expected them to go or not? i didnt cry when they first left, but i cried today. and so did my brother. Eva went home before my parents so she doesnt even know and tbh there's really no point in telling her. Charles is too young to even really notice any different, so i guess now me and my brother will be like his parents? and you all have no idea what it means to hear you all say such lovely things about me and my brother! he is so thankful to you guys! as am i

Rhia ~ I'VE MISSED YOU TOOOOO LOVE! i laaav you

Becks ~ Have you been taking the right amount of the tablets? I'm sorry that you are bruising like a peach And lmao, swollen knees stick out of jeans? my friend had that once, i felt so sorry for her, she looked in so much pain - but then they were super-skin-tight jeans (speaking of i brought two new lush pairs! i love them!). Try putting ice or pea packets on your knees! Yes, get well soon!

Amy ~ Thanks! And hehe, im pretty excited about going back to school too But lmao at the way you said "God, im such a nerd"

Wilda ~ i love you Gracie says "No! She can't hug me, i hugged her first!" Hope your internet gets fixed quickly

Ash ~ Aw, im so happy that you got a new guy And Andre sounds so amazing! Im definately liking him And i think its lovely how you haven't kissed yet. And i love that feeling, you are definately falling for this guy huh? That sucks that her adopted parents are moving away, but atleast you'll see her in the summer I just love the way you spoke about Andre! Sorry My mouth is zipped, i won't say no more....WOOOOOOOH


Who wears uniform to school? Because we have like a bit of a uniform, but we get to customise it. Like the girls have to wear a skirt and the guys trousers (like proper school bottoms basically no jeans), a white shirt with our logo on it, the tie and then we have to buy the blazer but only wear that on like special occassions or what not Anyways, i just brought some new skirts and jackets and shit I can wear and now im excited! So just wondering ...

Wow Ash a new guy? Thats great. I'm sorry that the adoptive parents are moving away but at least you'll get to see her. It'll make summers with her that much more special.

Some schools down here wear uniforms. But not all. Where we live now they don't but the school I went to in 8th grade we had to. But ti wasn't quite like yours. We were allowed to wear blue jeans, kakis and polo shirts. Colors were burgandy, navy blue, royal blue, white, and hunter green. And of course school shirts. I hated it. But that was just k-8th. the high schoolers didn't ahve uniforms just a dress code. The typical no showing certain body parts and clothes had to fit properly, etc.

I feel kind of lost right now. All my cleaning is done for the day and I don't really feel liek reading or watching tv. My son is napping so I can't go anywhere. I am just bored out of my mind and feeling a bit restless. I'm itching to do something but dk what to do...

I'd love to not have to wear uniform in a way. But i do love the freedom of ours And lmao, we do have some girls at my school that wear skirts that are bearly passable as underwear and they do the whole push-up bra thing! that really irritates me? I do n't get why girls do that to themselves, i mean they are basically saying "Hey, who wants to own my body?". I always say "If you got it, flaunt it, but don't get paid for it" Which is what I do I'm happy with the way I look and I don't go all out to show it off, i think it makes it more special when the person you are dating sees it That sounds real stupid but hey?

And its so weird, I was about to say 'pants' as in underwear but then i realised you call trousers 'pants'

Hmm..i wish I could give you some things to do? Err..call some friends over and have a get together? Lmao...pretty pathetic aren't I?

It doesn't sound stupid at all. I agree with you. I see nothing wrong with showing a little bit of cleavage, legs, arms or a little of your belly but don't show it all. It honestly gives guys the 'easy signal' if you know what I mean.

I'd call up my best friends to come hang out but we live an hour or so away from eachother and we all have little kids so its hard to get together. I've been looking up books and adding more to my already way too long TBR list lol. Can't seem to escape my mind and go into someone's else world enough these days. My son is still napping and the only sound I hear is me typing. It weird I don't even have music on. I rarely get to hear the house this quiet so I'm reveling in it

btw how is your job going Chloe?

Ash ~ I'm so happy for you. Andre sounds like a great guy.

Wilda ~ I know, I feel the same. I have no idea what to do.

Chloe ~ I'm so sorry about what happened with your parents and I want you to know that you have my full support. I'm here for you. I'm sure it'll be okay.
We don't have uniforms here. Sometimes I think it would be better if we did. This way people always judge each other based on clothes which I find really stupid. And I know what you mean- I don't get that girls. Like Wilda said, it gives the 'easy signal'.

ASH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *tackle hug's you* i missed you soooooo much.
EVERYONE my laptop is finally fixed so i can come on more now!!!!!!!!!!
Becca: I understand being a clutz cause i can trip.......on......................air
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That is why we close our eyes when we Cry,Kiss,and Dream
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I Wish For:
Wings to let me Fly
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I Wish For:
Spells to keep me Safe

Rhia: Brilliant that it's now fixed and you can come on more

Chole: We would not want to wear the uniform I had to wear for the last 5 years in secondary school! Red polo shirts, green jumpers and black trousers or skirts!! Horrible. I'm so glad that I can wear black and white for the next 2 years in sixth form We're not allowed to wear our own clothes cos the school's don't want to mix us up and to stop each other from commenting on what we're wearing. Clever but stupid and annoying!

Ladies! I have NEWS! So I might have found a new man. His name is Levi but... He's Dilian's best friend and I don't exactly know how I feel about that but I kinda like him... And I don't know if I should get into a relationship after being out of one for so long... It'll be a week tomorrow...

Ash: Congrats! And I liked the name Mac because it was an easy nickname... But I have another one! B! lol.

Chole: I love you too love. And they weren't sticking out of my jeans but they may as well have been.

Rhia: I'm not as bad anymore.

Ela: Ela you have a theme song and it goes like :Ela Ela Ela a a under my umbr-ela Ela Ela. don't worry i kid i kid
Becca: well that's good
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The best thing in life are unseen
That is why we close our eyes when we Cry,Kiss,and Dream
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I Wish For:
Wings to let me Fly
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I Wish For:
Spells to keep me Safe