new student, any volunteers to show me round the academy? :)x

Yeah......I'm just....not liking today at all.... *huggles back* ........

Oh, and, I also changed my profile for, uhmmm.....him....

Ma pauve don't torture yourself with his picture as your avatar and changing things for him

I'm not really being tortured...although, now, I've tried committing suicide three times.........

WHAT THE HELL WHERE YOU THINKING?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

I........wasn't.......really........thinking..........at......all........

Wait, no, this makes four...........

Once when I was...six? I tried drowning myself. Last year, I cut till I bled and passed out. Over summer I took too many pills. And yesterday I took pills with alcohol.....

Tania *tears well up in eyes* please don't..............................just don't ever do something like that ever again because it....it scares me Mo dheirfiúr milis bocht

Tania NO guy is worth committing suicide over. NO guy at all.




Not to brag or anything, but I just had a really great Vday. My hubby took off work early and went and picked my daughter up from school. We went to Gatorland. As long as I've lived in Fl, I've never been. It was great. Would have been better if half the park wasn't closed down due to construction, but it was fun. I got to pet an alligator and my daughter got to take a picture holding one with a snake around her too. My son screamed when we put him up there to be in the picture so he wasn't in it.

Rhia: I'm sorry, but, I didn't have anyone to talk to about it. And, I'm sure me talking to Maximus (my German Shepherd dog that's like a brother to me) would have him looking at me like I'm stupid.

Wilda: Maybe not, but.....to me....he's worth almost anything........

keyword Tania 'almost' but def not that.

Yeah....I guess.......anyways, uhmmm.....so, like, any suggestions on how to make my hand stop throbbing?....

Tania: ya well to me he's NOT worth almost anything and to make your hand stop throbbing put ice on it Mo dheirfiúr milis bocht

Well, if you guys wanna yell at him, you guys already know his username.

Thanks Rhia, I'll do that when I get home. By the way, what does that mean?

Mo dheirfiúr milis bocht means My poor sweet sister because you feel that need to torture yourself with someone who in my life i would talk briefly with and then be done with in a matter of moments

Awhhh, that's sweet liebling. But, with him?......it's really very....complicated...

you just called me little love in German Mo dheirfiúr milis bocht and I don't care if it's complicated with him stop torturing yourself

Lol, that also means darling. But, yeah, I'll...try...but, to be very truthful...I still love him...even after all this...and it hurts...

does it hurt like your hand Mo dheirfiúr milis bocht

No, loving him hurts me like.....like my heart has been stabbed with an ice cold and salt encrusted dagger. Like it's being ripped up and tortured, like someone keeps pulling and pulling till...it's just...cold...

Tania .. Dont ever do that again darling!

OK Tania you either need help getting over him or you need lots and lots and lots of hugs and comfort food to help with that hurting heart

Sammy: I won't.....but today.....I was disoriented this morning and blacking out a few times....

Rhia: Ehh.....I don't know....

Tania: *raises an eyebrow at you* OK