new student, any volunteers to show me round the academy? :)x

He is cute yes .. I have a type.. the black haired rocker/emo with guyliner look

Lol, mine is the country / white (not trying to ne racist! Just being utterly serious) guys with blue eyes, shaggy hair, taller than me and a slight muscular build. I prefer dark hair color, brown or black, it doesn't really matter, which ever looks good on him. With Shea, I prefer his brown hair. Black would just mess around with his overall look. But if he ever dyes it black, I'll get used to it. Because I fell for more than just his looks. I fell for everything about him in general.

I love blue eyes and green. i have this thing for eyes... if they are beautiful I will be drawn in

I know, right? Lol, with Shea and Conner...they have the blue eyes that made me get closer to them. Conner's eyes are light near his pupils but get darker outward. With Shea, his eyes are mostly a light crystal blue. A little pale and slightly gray near his pupils. I don't know why, but when ever we're right against each other, and he's staring down at me, his eyes sorta.....uhmm.....sparkle.....

one guy.. his eyes.. oh my god his eyes were beyond beautiful so blue! .... they sparkle? Thats so cool!

Lol, well, I only see them sparkle when he's looking at me.....ya know.....? Lol, gosh, I miss him so much...and it's barely been a day since we talked!!! To me, that's just pretty sad.....here I am trying to get him to just think about it all before anything and I'm just over here brooding, and thinking of him. Well, the girls day tomorrow, or...in a few hours should help. Me and my wifey are gonna go get our nails done and all that girly stuff.

ohhh I hope you and wifey have fun!! I need to do my nails LOL... but I got stressed out when my tire went flat and bit all my nails off o.O

Okay, big dislike! Hon, don't freak...much. I know, I'm a hypocrite, bite me. But, still, something like that is easily fixed. Didn't you have a spare? And, thanks. And next friday me and my wifey might go bowling! We were supposed to go tonight, but mommie in law said another time. Girrrrr -.-' lol. -looks all sweet and innocent fluttering my eyelashes- heehee

lol! oh I did.. but I had to clue how to change the tire then when I went to get the car fixed (we did the mantiance it needed) it was 500$ ...... my Rim was broken, it wasn't just flat the tire was... it was bad o.O

oh bowling is fun!

Oh gosh, I'd be running in .000000009 seconds if that happened, I'd be freaked! Lol, but anyway, like, my dad is planning on getting new rims, and, of course at first mom says no. But after they start looking, they both agree on it. Next thing you know, dad's done playing with his car and wants a 60 inch plasma! O.o' what the heck! Lol, yeah, but we all suck at it! Amera, me, mommie in law, Andrew, xavi and Taylor were gonna go bowling but we couldnt. I told Taylor not to laugh at how bad my bowling skills is.

I am terrible at bowling but I do it just cause its fun

Exactly! Lol, back in Hawaii (im in Texas now instead) i went bowling once or twice and i got about.....4 strikes, maybe 5? Lol, some of my old friends said i was a natural.

LOL i'll get like 2 shrikes lol and thats it

starting to get tired

Lol, yeah. -squeals- im sooooo cold, im shaking and i have chills running up and down my spine and my house is eerily quiet. please tell me that im not gonna get attacked by that demon on Paranormal Activity! Lol, go to sleep Sammy. Im positive that I'll be up all night, but oh well. -shrugs- one flaw with insomnia

Oh my, so many posts... I can't keep up with you
Anyone willing to fill me in? How are you?

Lol, Maris!!!! I warn you, this is a little long.....


I'm better. Okay, here's the gist of the past day. It was mostly me posting about something that went horribly wrong between me and touchan. And Sam, Wilda, Ela, Becca and Rhia helped me get through yesterday and the day before. Ela and Wilda started talking about hot guys. Then me, Sam, Wilda, Rhia, Ela and Becca talked about what I was going through and tried to help. Me and Sam talked most of last night. But about half an hour before she logged off, touchan changed his profile on here and we talked last night.
That's basically what happened

Lol, thanks..
I'm sorry to hear that, but I'm glad you're feeling better. I'm here for you if you need anything *hug*

Lol, thanks Maris. At the moment, me and touchan are fine. And he's made a decision. But just for any recollection, if we end up hurting this bad one more time, then it's over and done with and I'll try to start my recovery. Seeing as, he made it public already, you can check his profile out. Wolf9474 and, really? He is a wolf, he goes "rawr" sometimes, lol.

@Maris. Hello dear how are you?

@Tania: Sorry I dispapeered last night I fell asleep at my computer. I'm glad to here you and Shea talked, I hope it was a good conversation and that you both are starting to heal. remember you need me I'm here *huggles*

Wow...So much was posted since I signed off yesterday.

I hope you are feeling better Tania. Stay strong hun. HUGS

Hi Sam and everyone else. Hope you all have a great weekend. My husband ruined my mood a few minutes ago. I was excited to go shopping then we argued over something that the school guidance counselor said on the phone with me about ym daughter and now I don't even want to go shopping. I'd rather stay home and sulk for the res tof the day. But I promised I'd take my daughter shopping so shopping it is.

Tania: Just please don't scar yourself anymore. He isn't worth it.

Wilda: Right now I'm EXTREMELY tired. Had a really late rehearsal for the play we're doing and had to be up early this morning to take a shower and go help with things so we can have the play next weekend. After that I go to the church to practice our skit thing for tomorrow, and tonight I have friends from out of town coming in.... Argh, I'm so busy that I can't sleep or get homework done... :/ I want Domio's!

Sam: Thanks love. I'm blah because of how little sleep I've gotten though... That may be why my depression is acting up. I tend to get moody when I'm sleepy and when I'm moody my depression seems to like to jump into the merry-go-round. Except it's not so merry... :/

Ela: I have the Rocky Horror Picture Show and to my regret have never watched the ENTIRE thing. I plan on it soon, hopefully during my free time. Ha! Like I have that right now. The guys over here aren't too bad and I'd have to say that truthfully, Davian's the best looking of them all. So glad he's mine! (:

Tania: Love, I've been in that situation. Right now, the pain may be the most blinding thing in the world, but it will get better. I won't tell you that it will go away, because mine never has, but I will tell you that eventually, you learn to deal with the pain. But please love, don't lock yourself away. Don't do what I did and numb yourself to the world and so you can't feel. It may sound nice now, but in the long run... In the long run you'll mess yourself up and it will take years to fix. Don't make it to where you stop feeling and start pretending. I lived in that world for a year and a half and I couldn't remember some things, it was like I was on auto pilot. It's taken me two and a half years to actually be happy again, but I still haven't fixed what I did. Just remember, while it may never go away, eventually, you learn to live with it and it becomes more bearable.

Sam: I know how that's like. I know that people probably talk about me like that. I, however, can promise you that I won't. My friends have all made me promise and I know my cutting days are behind me all because of Davian. Two weeks ago, I wanted to cut so bad ans I told him to keep me from it. Well, he had relapsed and I made him promise to never do it again or I would leave him and I wouldn't go back (although it was an empty threat, he wouldn't take that chance) and he promised. Well, he told me for every cut I made, he's make two across his wrist. He knew that I would absolutely hate that, so I had to promise him I wouldn't anymore.

Tania: I'm here if you need me. And I can tell you this, if it is truly meant to be, no matter how long, or no matter the pain, it will be. What to know the real reason I eas edgy around Shea??? He reminded me of Davian when... When he was going to kill himself. If you're relationship is anything close to what I think it is to how me and Davian's was at that point of our lives, you'll be ok. I won't say that you two will be together, but I will say that you two can get through it and you don't have to do it alone. And Tania, your mom is right about one thing, it's harder to help people with their problems when you're running form yours. And when your problems catch up, it's hell. As for the fear of Shea not being alive, I can't tell you how to deal with that, because I still have to from time to time.

As for my types of guys: Looks don't matter, but pretty eyes and muscle tone are nice. For some reason I always fall for the troubled guys. I have to fix things.. Grr.. :/ As for Davian's eyes, they're multi colored. Always gorgeous...

Wilda: I'm sorry love

Maris: Hi.

Everyone: Sorry there's multiple post for some people, I was typing as I read.

I didn't go through and read everything.

Sorry you are so tired Becca. Hopefully you'll get to relax soon.

As for my type of guys. I've always been attracted to the blonde hair blue eyed guys. My husband has blonde hair and his eyes change colors from Blue to green if he's angry. But the majority of the time they are blue.

I probably won't get free time until April.... :/

Tania: I'm pretty good at bowling

Sam: i am well my heir

~still lost~

but thats okay. Hope everyone is doing okay.

I'm in a little better spirits. Yesterday the bf and i went outside. Around the block actually to a friends house. And seeing him outside and happy and laughing and joking just washed away alot of the stress and worry and anxiousness. I still have all that stuff. But his happiness brushed my heart and made me sooo happy to see him that way again. I haven't seen him so happy since before he was in the hospital. Everyday that passes the shock of everything that happened kind of fades and i realize just how close, and how many times, he almost died last week. Its all surreal. I can close my eyes and almost pretend none of this happened. BUt it did and as the shock of the situation fades, i'm proud of myself for holding it together and doing and managing as well as i did. I've always been mature and i've grown up alot since my dad got sick, but still my mom does most of the administrative and stress work to care for my dad. With my bf, i'm all he has and i jumped right into all this stuff. If i've seen myself now two weeks ago, i wouldnt even believe i was the same person.