new student, any volunteers to show me round the academy? :)x

Tasha: Glad to hear about your dad. Snow is amazing!!!!! Just not as much snow that you have. I wonder what College parties would be like for me? Lol, and I'm also rarely absent myself.

Rhia: Wow!!!!! I would never have walked to school through snow. That's a deathwish waiting to happen...anyhoo, never though snow could get down pants? Sounds...disturbing... <3!!!!!!

Everyone: Back to my earlier problem with that guy...ugh! NOT UP FOR ANYTHING ANYMORE!!!!! God, I hate when this happens with us! </3 I was guarded, but I guess I wasn't protecting myself very much... Broke down last night for two hours and finally gave in to my urge...Becca and Leela...you know what the urge is. And, no, I wouldn't mind if you opened up and said it freely. It doesn't really matter much anyway. You guys already know, and I don't wanna hide it from the rest of you on here. So, yeah.

But I hope and wish the best for all of you <3!!!!!

Tania, I already replied to your pm. But I'll say it here and I know the girls will back me up. Stay strong. No guy is worth hurting yourself over. And liek I said, I've had experience in that department so I'm not jsut saying that as someone who doens't understand, cause I do.

Thank you Wilda and, well.....yeah. I responded back also. I just hope I don't get yelled at by a bunch of friends on here....

OK...what did you do Tania? I have no idea....and I'm really sorry about the guy thing...my guy broke up with me after 3 days, and it crushed me that he didn't even give us a try, but there are plenty more fish (well, guys) in the sea

Same happened with another guy, but not the one I'm talking about.

I sorta.....hurt myself over a fight Shea (pronounced Shay) and I had last night. It's not really good for me to be alone after a situation like that, but my mom takes my phone at 9 and I stayed up for a few hours crying like I was dying. After that...I lashed out. When I'm alone and filled with darkness and depression like that...I couldn't help it. And my sister was no help because she was sleeping. But I prefer her to sleep instead. She's soooo young. And, I don't want to tarnish anything. She deserves to look up at me like I'm a strong individual. Not some weak girl who can't take what guys dish out. So.....yeah. That's practically what happened.... </3

Tania...you shouldn't have done that to yourself love :/ We're here for you, you know that...I don't think any of us would have a go at you for doing that, we'd just comfort you.

Tania and Tasha: i'm not that dedicated i just wanted to see my friends and snow is really cold when it's down your pants like colder than ice cubes would be. and Tania what's the urge and no hurting your self and Ela's right you shouldn't hurt yourself over a guy trust me and i promise i won't yell at you

Thanks Ela. I know you guys wouldn't, it's just...things are soooo difficult and painful I feel like I wanna break down once class gets out.

Wow Rhia, snow sounds mean now. The urge to hurt myself and lash out at myself, as in...cut... I don't feel too good about it myself anymore...I feel like I'm weird gunk people scrape off their shoe... And, thanks. But this one guy...I thought I could seriously trust. It's been over fourteen months that we've been close...we've told each other our deepest darkest secrets to each other. I really wish what happened last night could change...I'd give almost anything, just to fall into his arms and cry.....

Any time Tania...I'm known as the therapist by some of my friends lol I'm here to help...anyone that needs any advice, I'm here

I hate the snow now! What ever you do Rhia, please don't send it to North Wales lol! They're promising snow here, next week...really not looking forward to it -_-

Lol, I took up the part as being the person people can come to for help. But really, when it comes to my friends, I bottle everything up to protect them until it just....pours out...

Tania: I don't want you cutting yourself OK cause it worries me and it makes me think you might be a masicist.

Ela: don't worry i'm not gonna try and shove snow through the computer like someone we know *cough cough Becca cough cough*

tania: I'm really good at keeping other people's secrets and my own stuff as well, but some things are just to big to keep inside you for a long time...I learned that when I crashed down crying about something that's happened years ago now, but it still affects me to this day.

Rhia: Hehe...thanks love I hope the snow melts very quickly for you!

Exactly why I'm afraid, Ela. What if I go psycho?.....it scares me.

Rhia: What's a....a masicist?

Tania: You'll have to, one way or another, tell someone else a secret of yours, or you're just going to crash and burn, like I did, but a really good friend of mine was there for me, and she cheered me up, big time...with the most hilarious things ever!

Everyone: Who speaks Greek on here? Got a question I'd like to ask you

Yeah, Amera does that for me too. We just met this week, but I already told her my deepest darkest secret that I told everyone on here. And Amera is on here as "Taco Bell" and she has a Gir picture I just can't talk to her after 9 p.m. because my mom takes my phone at that time, so I'm alone. And because of insomnia, I can't really sleep at night.....

Why does your mum take your phone away? I couldn't live without my phone at night! Have you tried some medication for your insomnia?

Ela: i kinda speak Greek

Tania: a masicist is someone who hurts themselves on purpose, and take something for your insomnia

Rhia: Awesome...can you fully translate what Ella means in Greek for me? My parents picked that name for me (but with only one 'L' b/c I was made in Greece, if you catch my drift).

Because she don't trust me with it at night because I snuck out once to see Conner (my ex after a hard time Between Shea and I before. Then Conner dumped me and Shea came back......). So now I'm not allowed to have my phone in any room at my house or after 9 from Sunday-Thursday nights.

Yes, I have, but now they don't work. My body got too used to them

Rhia: I....I guess I am....kinda.....but I don't want to be that way to you it makes me feel bad.....

Tania: Have you tried a different medication towards it?

No, because this one my doctors prescribed me to use this one.

Tania: Oh Honey......i don't think of you that way you're like a little sister to me and don't beat yourself up over it OK just try to stop OK? cause it worries me that you cut so please try to stop

Rhia: Thank you. I feel slightly better. And I'll face withdrawl from it again, okie dokies? And even though I had a tough time the last 36 hours, I feel better. From you guys and my friends that I hung out with earlier tonight.

Tania: OK but really talk to us if you need help because i know that all of us will help you

Ela: OK the made in Greece thing is just...... please, just, pleas don't go there cause that's just TMI

I'm so lost. But i'm super sorry, i dont have time to catch up. I have to run and go do errands and stuff for my dad. But promise later on i'll come back.