new student, any volunteers to show me round the academy? :)x

Hey everyone

Just asking a question and then I'm going. Do you think its way OTT for me to thi nk my parents got me a place in boarding school because they don't want me here? Because they aren't really talking to me, and I'm making an effort but they just ignore. It should be the other way round, right? I mean they left and I was the one who had to play a role as a parent
Aaron's moving out to a flat with his friends, and will be on campus at University soon as well. So that leaves Gracie and Charles here with the staff and my parents. The whole time my parents have been back they've been buying gifts for Grace and Charles (and its not like I want anything but y'know?) and not me, and then doing things and going off out places with them and without me. I have actually spent two days in the house on my own? I just don't know what to think.

Hope you are all having a good weekend

Oh Chloe...HUGS.

You know what i think? I remember several months back when you told your parents off, u told them to either be there for Gracie or leave and they choose to leave ...i think that experience changed them. I think since you called them out and stood up to them , they have that guilt u know. I dont think you siblings would have stood up to them like you did. And honestly, they know how you felt so i think they are trying to secure your siblings affections by buying them gifts. I hope this dont sound mean but i think they are just trying to lavish and show a good face so they wont feel as guiltly when they run off again. U know? I think boarding school was your choice, and so they agreed to it not to anger you-that sort of thing. But honestly, i know its hurtful and it sucks but maybe just confront them about it. Tell them you feel left out. Maybe its not their intention. BUt i suspect they are trying to win your siblings affections. But this is just what i think from the little you shared with me u know. I dont mean to talk out of term or judge..just my opinion. Either way, i love yaaa and boarding school is for ballet right? Just go and do what you love. we'll never know what or why people think or do things. So if you cant get an answer out em then just move on and go about your business. You'll drive yourself mad with all this thinking and what ifs and thinking of ulterior motives...

Oh Chloe...I don't really know what to say because the only time I felt really ignored by my parents my sister Kelli had swine flu and my sister Morgan had a kidney infection so I don't really know how to reply to that...

Hey Sammy, do you think you could make me a banner with Anju Maaka on it ( Aju's from Chibi Vampire)

Tasha you have no idea how much that has helped me! Thank you so much I understand what you mean, and I'd much rather you told me what you were thinking I have wondered if it is because of when I told them that a few months ago. If buying them presents makes them leaving better then in a way I don't mind, as long as Gracie and Charlie are happy. I don't want them growing up to hate my parents, or to feel like they don't love them, so buying presents is probably a good thing, right? Yaah, the school does have ballet and that is the main reason I am going, also its amazing academically and it will be a great experience I just don't want to have to give it all up if my parents decide to jet off again
Again, thank you. I'm going to discuss it with them in private at lunch Thank you Tasha!!!

Rhia - Whoa, swine flu! Jeez, I'm sorry she had that

And congradulations to the US special forces for capturing Osama Bin Laden! But everyone be careful still!

Yeah so was I, but my parents made up for it at Christmas because they explained why they hadn't been able to ay to much attention to me (basically it was because they had to take care of my sisters)

Oh Leela and Rhia........

Chloe , I hope the talk goes well. I'm hopefull its just all a miscommunication sort of thing. HOpe it all works out for you. HUGS
And, today i feel especially proud of ALL our soldiers. Whichever branch they serve in the military.

Chloe, I agree with Tasha. I hope the lunch goes well and let us know how it goes. Love you! HUGS!

Good Morning everyone! Hope you all had a wonderful weekend!

Rhia - Aw that was nice of them

Tasha & Wilda - Thanks! Well, I just spoke to them about it. I basically said how I was feeling. And, I'm serious here, never been so angry before. Well I'm pretty sure it was anger They said that it was "disrespectful" of me to say such things when they are the ones who support the family and allow us to go on. THey said they are the ones who raised the family and I was a disgrace for trying to take over and control! I actually could not believe it. So I started saying about how they haven't even been around to be parents. And my mother slapped me and said I would never be a good mother and to stop criticising her. Which did make me feel bad But then she just acted like the whole conversation didn't happen and told me to get ready for this party we've got later and said I was turning into a plebbie.
But I got somewhere with my father, he patted my head and poked my nose and said "Go on kiddo". And that may sound stupid, but thats what he used to do and it means a lot to me I guess its just my mother. But I've given up now, I don't know what more to do

And I agree with you Tasha, I am proud of all soldiers. They are incredible

Did you have a good weekend Wilda?

LOVE YOU BOTH!!!!!

Chloe, I am SO sorry about your mom. I guess I can understand her being upset with everything. No parent wants to hear their child say things like that but slapping you was...well, it makes me angry. But you said what you needed to say and I hope you feel better for getting it out. And about your Father, it does not sound stupid at all. Any jesture no matter how little means something and if it means something to you, then its definitely not stupid. Try not to worry about things right now. Just go to school and enjoy everything. If your parents do take off again and I hope they don't, then worry about that then. For now, focus on you. You deserve to be happy too

I did have a good weekend. Saturday sucked due to the kdis not listening, but Sunday was family day and we went shopping and took the kids miniature golfing. It was fun How was your weekend?

Yaah, I do feel slightly better, its good to get thi ngs off your chest y'know? Thanks Wilda And take your own advice yaah!! Focus on yourself now also And aw, I've only played miniature golf twice before, but I found it so fun Wow, you have a family day? That's so lovely
Well, I've just been revising really, and I sorted my room out, clothes wise. I put some winter clothes in the charity box, and some new summer clothes in my wardobe! I get really excited at the change of seasons
ANd now I have to shower and get my hair done for later. I hope you have a good day!

Hey Girls how is everyone?

I am.....confused..............
Natalia Kills ~ Activate My Heart

hai evryone..............*waves shyly* i got put in iss for flippn at 2 teachers..............mii mom ish gona kil me...........she just wont at teh moment cuz we r at her job.............

BAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I DID NOTHIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yeah and they got me a really pretty necklace that has blue gems

im probly not gona come tew skool
i just wana die...........
xavi iznt here anymore
mii arms hurt
nd mii heart ish startn tew hurt again;/............

Bonsoir mes chéris ombre. Je me sens très français ce soir

translation: Good evening my shadow darlings. I am feeling very french tonight

Chloe- I'm so sorry your mother responded like that. It made me furious to read about. But then hearing about your dad cheered me up. If it makes you feel better. Maybe in her head, her own twisted world she is being a good parent. My mom trash talks me all the time. That's her way of "encouraging" me. Some people just believe its their way and their way is always right and everyone else should be flattered and privileged to their way and opinions. Smh. But i'm glad and proud of you for standing up for yourself and being open and honest. You really were the bigger person and I couldn't be prouder of you. HUGS.

Everyone- hey how is everyone doing?

Good Morning Tasha! I am still tired but I'm good. Making a trip to BN sometime today to get some new books so I'm excited. It's a long overdue trip. How are you?

hey evryone...............im doin fine so far...............havnt cried much since i woke up..................but yea .........how r yew this mornin??

Tania: can yew bring breaking dawn tomorow?

@Tasha and Wilda Hi girls ^_^ a trip to BN sounds fun I spent all day there yesterday

@Rhia making your banner darling

Lol Wilda, i read ur comment earlier, pretty much as soon as ur posted it while I was at the hospital and i literally went "OMG BOOKS" and signed off and went to amazon.com and ordered my books ( Dead Reckoning and The Throne of Fire and some other book). Lol, i wouldnt have remembered if it wasn't for you. :-)

I've been feel ..ugh... all day. I couldnt wait to come home and get in bed. But my dad was outside and so we stood helping him tend to things. THen we came inside, ate. and Now i jumped into bed and ican easily and happily fall asleep, but i wont. I hope to just lay down and read.

Tasha that is funny about the books i mean

how is every one doing today?