vampire academy reminds me of my life :( please help!

im dating a great young fun guy, who loves to party and have fun.. we are the same in many ways except the partying.. but everything else we are just alike.. people around me accepts him as my bf.. he swears we are going to be married and hav kids and that we will be the happiest couple in the world.. he is there for me no matter the situation he seems like the most healthy choice for me as a boyfriend....
and yet there is this guy who drives me insane.. we are so different... he dresses in black, has piercings, tatts and loves rock and only rock.. i for once: try to be as girly as possible since my profession makes it difficult.. i like to dress in different colors but extremely enjoy wearing my job's uniform although i look tomboyish, i listen to all sorts of music!
the one thing that drifts me into this guys arms is the passion for what we do.. its his knowledge in our profession.. how it is that every time i work with him we make the perfect team even though he is my superior he makes me feel confident enough to take control of the situation and act.. he is a paramedic, and i an emt-intermediate. and he is 7 years older than me.. yesterday he confessed that he loves me.. and i? well i couldnt help but to just think about breaking up with my now boyfriend.. but of course i havent.. he kissed me and fireworks went off.. he scared of hurting me if we do have a relationship.. but he is willing to go for it only if im willing..
-he also said that if i was completely in love with my now bf i wouldnt second think myself about being with him.. and i know its true... and to be completely honest. my crush for my ex instructor now my superior paramedic came way before my bf jumped into the picture.. the reason i am with my bf is because he came along at the perfect moment.. the moment when i decided that my paramedic wasnt going to ever gives us a chance do to the fact that back then he was my instructor and older than me so i decided to give up on waiting/
what do i do??? reading this entire series all i could think was me, my paramedic, and my bf... and now.. well now i dont know what to do... my heart is torn apart.. any opinions??? i swear this isnt a lie.. this is true story im going insane

omg! your love life is REALLY like the Dimitri - Rose - Adrian love triangle!

if you want an honest opinion on this...stick with your heart, your gut feeling. If your heart/gut feeling tells you to be with the paramedic, go with it...you might or might not regret it, but you'll never know if you don't take the chance.

If you heart/gut tells you to stick with your boyfriend, then do so but explain to the paramedic that this is the path you have chosen, and i am very sure he'd fully respect that.

always go with what YOU feel right, not in your mind, but in your heart.

i agree. go with your heart. Not your mind. there is no way out of the situation without someone being hurt, including yourself. But in the long run things will work out better. Stay true to your heart's heart.

thanks guys but my heart is bailing out on me right now.. i think it wants the paramedic.. even though he is all forbidden for me.. he is also so perfect at the same time

u just need to figure out your feelings. You have to be honest with yourself and ask yourself questions you may not normally do. Also consider if you want the older guy because of the taboo, because its' forbidden and all that... the allure of it. Also if it's infatuation or true feelings. It's stuff only you can answer cause it's your feelings. I say just sit down and think or write about.. even do a pro and con list. Just get it all out and be completely honest with yourself.

this is all extremely hard... i dont want to hurt anyone.. but i guess i gotta do what i gotta do :-/

I'm confused... I think love is simple...

Live to win, till you die, 'till the light dies in your eyes.
Live to win, take it all, just keep fighting till you fall-Paul Stanley

Moral lesson.

Don't let someone decide for you. Take control of the situation and just go with the flow of your instincts.

I disagree with Cloudy. Love is anything but simple. I'm deeply madly in love with my fiancee, we make four years together next month, and he feels the same way about me. But it was anything but simple in the beginning. We still have tough times sometimes. But, once we fought for our love and relationship and were open enough with our whole hearts and emotions and feelings and fears and insecurities , yeah it comes easy now. Our love now is unconditional ( proven with the fact of his cancer we are going stronger than ever through this situation). Once you reach a certain point its just easy- we co-exist. But its a long hard road to that point.

Tony- that's a really great quote!